The idea of being vulnerable can be a scary thought for many. When I hear that word I have this vision in my mind of a scared woman. Her face is in her hands as if trying to hide her pain. I believe we are all afraid of being hurt. Being hurt emotionally can cause major trust issues. It can scar a person for life. I’ve been there! I had this little shield called distance because of my trust issues. Honestly, I couldn’t tell if it was that I couldn’t trust people; or I couldn’t trust myself.
Maybe you feel like you’re better off living life with a jaded heart. Unwilling to allow people in your life, because you can’t take bruising your heart once more.
What if I told you that God wants to take those hurts and heal them? But, you have to be willing to get hurt again.
Last year I experienced a huge disappointment. For the sake of privacy, I’ll just say this; I was let down by someone I thought would stick by my side. We had poured into this persons life! It didn’t end as I had hoped it would. The reason I share this is because that was my pivot point. I was so discouraged about it. I had to really get on my knees to pray and seek the Fathers face. At one point the Holy Spirit asked me; “Was I going to do this even if it’s hard?” He asked me; “Would I still show love to people if they don’t love me back?”
I knew that The Lord was teaching me what is expected of us as Pastors. How can I pour into people if my heart is jaded? How can I attempt to love someone with a wall between us? How will I be willing to reach out to others who are broken if I think that everyone can hurt me? All these questions were running through my mind. Then, the Holy Spirit asked this question– “Do you really believe that I love you?” I say I believe God loves me, but am I living like I believe it. I made the decision to trust God; I’m gonna allow myself to be vulnerable before Him.
Being vulnerable isn’t an easy thing to do. It requires much faith! I have to trust that even in the midst of pain or discouragement, “God is working ALL things out for my good because I’m called for His purpose (Romans 8:28).”
Sometimes bad things are gonna happen, and I’m not gonna know why those things are happening. Does that mean God doesn’t love me? Absolutely NOT! It just means that; “The teacher is silent during the test.” [Proverbs 18:10] says; “God is my strong tower. The righteous run to it and are safe.”
Honestly, I have found myself falling more in love with God during my storms of life. He’s faithful to bring me peace when I’m down. When things are going well in life it’s easy for us to get comfortable, forget to read our bible, forget to pray, or even just say thank you to Him!
I urge you friends don’t run away from God, or put up a wall because things didn’t go the way you had hoped it would. You will miss out on true peace and true love!
There is no stopping a determined person!
I believe God is who He says He is. He is our loving creator and friend! Since I’m His; I carry His power and His strength. I’m gonna choose to be unstoppable! I’m gonna keep getting back up and fight this good fight. Will you fight with me?! I pray you will!
Rest in Him friend,