healing, Relationships

Broken Hallelujah

There is something so beautiful when brokenness meets praise. Where there is nothing left to hold onto, other than a broken hallelujah. 

 

“The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit. You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.”

Psalms 51:17 NLT

 

I was broken-hearted. I was tired of doing things my way and never experiencing true healing, because I thought I could cover my hurt with alcohol, men, partying. Anything to keep me distracted of the pain I was feeling in my heart.

This time – I finally decided I would give God a true and honest chance. I was willing to hurt, but, open to the idea of being healed…

I finally let go of what I thought I knew about God and church and I allowed myself to learn and grow in Him and His truth.

Learning the power of worship, brought true healing and strengthened my foundation.

 

At first, to be quite honest, I didn’t know the “music” I heard at church was actually worship. All I knew was that there was something going on in my heart and I was drawn to it.

 

A Responsive Heart

 

I wanted to play the same songs that I was hearing in church. I wanted the same goose-bump feelings, I felt as these songs played at the beginning of the service.

I wanted that same peace I felt when this broken girl was at church. I felt comforted. I felt new. I felt something I couldn’t put into words unless you felt it yourself.

 

There was a time I was talking to my sister Sheri about church. Sheri was the sister in whom I saw her life change for the better, because she was going to church…

During one of our conversations about church, she was simply explaining what worship was. She told me that – “worship is what we offer unto the Lord before He speaks to us. We give our hearts to God in Praise and it prepares us for what God will speak to us through the service.”

Simply put – Worship postures our hearts for the rest of the service.

Woah!

This was something I was so unaware of – BUT, when I heard it, it was as if my heart said yes and amen. 

When we tap into the presence of God, there is a part of our soul that is awakened.

That was exactly what I was experiencing…

My life wasn’t the same after that!

My source of joy, peace and the desire to love and forgive all came from Him. I began to live from Him.

 

 

I will sing to the Lord as long as I live. I will praise my God to my last breath.

Psalms 104:33 NLT

 

I remember going on YouTube and searching for the songs I was listening to at church. The songs that were on repeat at that time were songs like ‘Savior King’ and ‘Mighty to Save’ by Hillsong.  Lyrics, that penetrated right into my heart such as…

 “We love you Lord, we worship you

You are our God, you alone are good

You asked your Son to carry this

The heavy cross, our weight of sin”

~ Saviour King 

 

“So take me as You find me

All my fears and failures

And fill my life again

I give my life to follow

Everything I believe in

And now I surrender

(I surrender)”

~ Mighty To Save

 

Revelation was taking place. I was hearing these songs about worshiping someone whom I had heard of, but hadn’t actually understood the depth of who He REALLY is — JESUS — The one whom had saved me from myself. The Savior of the world. I wanted to surrender my life to Him…

 

 

I was able to let go of reason. I let go of logic and I engaged in a supernatural experience. Where I became fully aware of the presence of God. 

I allowed my heart to align with His Spirt. Something happened and there is no other answer other than – power released through worship. The power that releases through a heart dedicated to obedience to God. A heart after Gods heart.

 

From the end of the earth I call to You when my heart is faint; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For You have been a refuge for me. A tower of strength against the enemy. Let me dwell in Your tent forever; Let me take refuge in the shelter of Your wings. Selah. 

Psalms 61:2-4 NASB

 

Once I understood that worship is what I was offering unto the Lord, I began to hear the services in a different way.

I began to grow spiritually. God put people in my life who would take time to teach me about the Bible. And, one of those people would later on become my husband. He would not only teach me about the Bible, but I actually saw him live out what he spoke.

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My husband is a worshipper! I saw him unashamedly fall on his knees in reverence to God!

Learning to worship God was the beginning:

  • I’ve learnt to forgive myself.
  • I’ve learnt to forgive others.
  • I’ve learnt to wait.
  • I’ve learnt to trust Him.
  • I’ve been comforted.
  • I’ve experienced healing in my mind and body.

Learning to worship isn’t something that happens and stays. I’ve had to push through, and fight my flesh.

I’ve had to force my hands up. I have had to offer praises that were a sacrifice of faith. Believing that God would be faithful and meet me – right where I was.

 

The other thing I feel important to mention is, through all my seasons of life – I have learnt  to stay at the feet of Jesus. Meaning, regardless of what is going on in my life (marriage, family, financial, physical issues) I don’t allow myself to withdraw from the presence of God. You will find me at the front – worshipping with praise or pain.

I believe with ALL my heart, it is where my true and purest source of power, and strength is drawn from. I constantly must drink from the well of living water.

 

My prayer is, if you haven’t experienced the presence of God, that you will go deeper with Him. Starting with how you worship at church and at home. Don’t allow circumstances to dictate how you will offer your praises. Let your praises be offered in a fully surrendered heart. I promise – YOU – WON’T – regret it. He WILL draw close to you.

 

Rest in Him friend,

With Love,

Rosie Hernandez

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Identity

Undaunted

What makes a woman strong?

I have found that one word will ultimately make you stronger than you think. It’s simple, yet many of us struggle to apply it. I mean really apply it… ready for it???

LOVE

I know, it’s soo cliché. The Christian girl, telling you, all you need is love.

But, honestly learning to love fearlessly and genuinely, has been my biggest strength.

Has it been easy? No way! I’ve had reason to hold grudges.

Betrayal, abandoned, rejected, persecuted, and even violated. The healing process of such things haven’t been easy and there was a lot of mind battles that came with the healing process.

Now, I don’t want to take away from the healing (that’s another blog for another day), but without learning to do what was hard on my own strength, which is to love despite my valid reason to not – I couldn’t have experienced true freedom.

Living love is an ongoing process. You don’t all of a sudden love someone who hurt you by deciding one day that you’ll love, and that’s it… It is a daily choice!

And let me be clear… you CAN NOT do it on your own strength. It has to be a complete dependency on the Lord to guide you into loving others. Especially when it’s hardest to love.

“Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing.”
‭‭John‬ ‭15:5‬ ‭NLT‬‬

I’ve seen people refuse it, and the outcome is always the same. Bitterness a lot of hurt and continual drama in their life. All because of refusing to forgive and move forward.

Take a look at the marches you see happening…

First off, you can’t be for women and then refuse them because of their political views. You are either for ALL women or you’re NOT. These marches are nothing but a hypocritical, selfish reason to lure people in to walk for someones own agenda. I saw more division and hatred coming out of these marches than women who are strong and empowering each other.

“Hatred causes arguments, but love overlooks all wrongs.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭10:12‬ ‭ERV‬‬

Don’t get me wrong, I believe there were some women who had good intentions.

God NEVER intended division among His people. He didn’t from the beginning and He doesn’t now.

“Love never gives up on people. It never stops trusting, never loses hope, and never quits.”
‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭13:7‬ ‭ERV‬‬

 

Only one from the beginning of time, brought upon destruction and an evil that could manipulate, deceive, and separate people from their maker.

“God knows that if you eat the fruit from that tree you will learn about good and evil, and then you will be like God!””
‭‭Genesis‬ ‭3:5‬ ‭ERV‬‬

That my friend, is satan!

Have you ever wondered why the enemy chose to deceive Eve over Adam?

Because of who God created women to be!!!

Satan knew that if he could assault woman first, ultimately he would assault mankind. And that is exactly what happened!

 

He knew that this assault would cause, blame (that’s what Adam did as God asked about eating the forbidden fruit. And it’s what we do, when we complain that Eve ate the fruit), shame, condemnation, pride and much more.

Satan attacked the very people whom God created in His image. He knew that by attacking man and bringing division against each other, he was attacking God.

Why? Because man is Gods greatest creation.

 

As parent of a teenager, when my daughter doesn’t listen to my instructions that are GOOD for her (which she often doesn’t think it is), It bothers, hurts and upsets me.

I can’t help but think about, how hurt God was when He instructed Adam and Eve NOT to eat of the fruit, and they did it anyway.

Since then, we have experienced the brokenness of relationships with each other and most importantly with GOD!

That was an attack against ALL mankind. No specific gender. All. Anyone created in the image of God.

Here was Adam and Eve, physically walking with God, and all because of disobedience, the moment they chose to believe a liar over their Creator, their relationship was shattered. Broken. A continual target for the enemy. Seeking to divide and devour mankind.

I am praying that we will truly KNOW who God has created us to be. Strong women who will empower one another. Also, stand strong beside men whom God has also created for us to work alongside and not against.

To explain further on how Eves attack was ultimately against mankind, I’m honored to introduce Carrie Friedrich as my co – writer to share her insight on who Eve was…

Carrie Friedrich:

When I was a little girl I used to run around my house in my Wonder Woman underwear. Spinning around the house pretending to be my favorite super hero.
Fasting forward 35 years… now I’m a wife, mom of three, and pastors wife… many times I still feel like I’m spinning around in circles.
But Recently as the flu bug rampaged through our home and finally hit Mom… (me) I found myself groggily going through my day waking up my daughter for school, making her lunch, preparing to speak for our church women’s night and grocery shopping…. all the things all of us moms do every single week… sick or not.
Certainly didn’t feel like Wonder Woman that day.

Made me think about Eve.

Gen. 2:18 And the LORD God said, It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him an help meet for him.

Do you know that the Hebrew word that was used in reference to Eve as a help meet was “Ezer”? Ezer literally means strong… it also means to carry.
Basically God himself called Eve, Wonder Woman. He calls you Wonder Woman. I am Wonder Woman. And it’s not by anything We’ve done. It’s all because He made us this way.

He made us with the strength to carry heavy things all while being tender enough to carry delicate things.

March is national women’s history month. I’m sure we will hear the names of many famous strong women who changed their environment for the good…

But we are all called for a purpose. God didn’t just give us strength to carry our own circle but to expand our reach to others.

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That is why I think of my favorite hero Wonder Woman… in the comic books she was always helping others. Carrying others to safety, fighting to save others…
All the things we can do. We don’t need super powers, we have His Holy Spirit living within us. We are capable of so much more than we think.
If we could just realize that when God called us “helpmeet” it was basically saying here she is…. strong enough to carry big things. How much more effective would we be as women if we embraced this?

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So let’s hike up our big girl super hero panties and spin into all that God has for us!

 

We don’t need to prove to others that we are strong by marching around with confused ideas of strength. We don’t need to trample over others to prove how strong we are. There is certainly no need to compete with another to prove our strength.

It’s already inside us. We just need to learn to trust God and learn to walk in Love as He has called us to do.

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‬‬“and walk in love, just as Christ also loved you and gave Himself up for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God as a fragrant aroma.”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭5:2‬ ‭NASB

 

I’ve included this great video on Ravi Zacharias’ answer to the question “Does God favor a gender?” Enjoy!

 

Happy International Women’s Day!

 

Rest in Him friends,

With love,

Rosie and Carrie