It’s the 1st of February.
My, how time flies! First month of the year is already gone. This year I’ve promised myself to slow down and enjoy what’s happening around me. So much can happen in a year.
At the end of each year, I like to evaluate the year and all my progress. When I was on the mountain top, was I thanking God?! Not only thanking Him with my lips, but did my life display thanksliving. How did I handle trials of life? Was I living by faith? Could I have given more in some areas of my life?
I’m confident that regardless of what happened the previous year, with the right mind set, we can walk into a New Year with God-fidence (Confidence in God).
I have stepped into the New Year knowing that whatever my future holds, in all my fears, my anxiousness, all my unknowns, in all my wonders – God is with me. Though I may not know what tomorrow holds, I know who holds my tomorrow.
I’m gonna pursue Gods plans for my life. Because, I know His unfailing love is constantly pursuing me.
As the year began in 2017. My husband and I were pioneering a church. We experienced so many loops in that journey. We started off with a bonfire bible study in beautiful Newport Beach, Ca. Then moved location just under a gazebo that was right in front of a bar and grill. We encountered many people. Then, we rented a small room from a Lutheran Church, where we began to have our church services. We knew that God was certainly with us. Later we moved into our home to continue having service there.
6 months into the year, we found ourselves having to make one of the hardest decisions of our lives. There was an issue that took place with the leadership that was covering The Break Ministries (our church name). We experienced betrayal and because of what took place, we prayerfully made the choice to separate from our old church. We were left with the decision to either stay and continue to build the break ministries, or join another church in our fellowship.
As we were seeking God for direction, I can still remember how many things ran through my mind.
What would people think of our choice?
Was this truly Gods direction?
Have we failed?
“In your heart you plan your life. But the Lord decides where your steps will take you.”
Proverbs 16:9 NIRV
I’ll never forget the words someone shared with us as we sought counsel. We were afraid of feeling like we had abandoned Gods purpose in our life. He said; “the most important thing you need to worry about is how your family is doing, and get restored.”
With all that happened we weren’t ok. Trust had been broken. We needed restoration.
As we made the choice to step down and allow healing to take place – making sure our family was ok, was my husbands priority. And he did that well!
Words that had been spoken over us were slowly dissipating. The feeling of failure was trying to creep it’s way in my heart and mind.
As we began the journey in our new church, we stepped into the unknown with a heart of worship.
In my husbands words: “we go in, and let nothing hinder our worship.”
“O God, we meditate on your unfailing love as we worship in your Temple.”
Psalms 48:9 NLT
What happens now
‘What happens now?’ is the question that usually follows sudden change in our lives.
Whenever we experience change, we often find ourselves reacting out of fear. Questioning many things. And in my case I questioned Gods call upon our lives. Fear can leave us paralyzed and tormented in the mind with all the what if’s.
If I’m honest, stepping down from Pastoring a church, figuring things out, entering new territory came with insecurities. But it also came with great excitement to start fresh, with new vision, and build new relationships.
We began a new ministry, that involves meeting new people and having fun. We’ve come alongside others to serve wholeheartedly. And we have been entrusted with a pretty important ministry in the church. I don’t share these things to toot our own horn. None of that could’ve have been possible had we walked in the church with a sense of entitlement. With pride because of a title we had. Or even walking in defeated. We stepped into the church feeling a little vulnerable to be honest, but nonetheless we committed ourselves.
“Commit your works to the LORD [submit and trust them to Him], And your plans will succeed [if you respond to His will and guidance].”
PROVERBS 16:3 AMP
A friend once told me, “if you fall on your face when you’ve given God everything, well then you fell on your face FOR THE LORD!”
Friends, NOTHING we do with ALL of our heart for God, will ever go unnoticed.
Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence,
You’ve never failed me yet
These lyrics ministered to both my husband and I. They were the cry of our hearts.
Our Pastors have challenged the church to get out what God has put inside our hearts.
There is something stirring within EVERY heart. It’s up to us, to allow God to bring us through challenging roads and unexpected issues of life, looking at complicated road maps (which look like a bunch of scribbles to me because I’m directionally challenged) and trust that He will guide us to a safe places.
I wanna leave you with these questions to consider…
Where is your commitment?
What do you seek from God?
Are we seeking God to do “big things”?
Will you do the “small” things?
What is most important about your walk with God – being safe, in a place of contentment and complacency? Or, are you willing to serve God with whatever it takes, even if you get dirty?
What you give power to, has power over you. If you give into defeat, you will walk around defeated.
If you give into pride, you will walk around prideful.
If you give into humility, you will walk in humility and God can work His best through a humble heart.
Seek your purpose. Take steps of FAITH!
The worst thing I believe a person can feel, is regret. Living with regret is something I refuse to carry into a New Year! I don’t wanna look back at my life and wish I had taken more chances.
Take chances. Let God walk with you in the unknown.
Rest in Him friend,