Almost 40 years old and here I am, married with 4 children. Mothers Day is quickly approaching.
I was thinking about my teenage years and how thankful I am, that I have a mom who was a mother of prayer. Words my mom spoke to me as a young girl began to flood my mind. There were times I kept my mom up late as she was praying that I would make it home safe and alive. I wasn’t a very good student. In fact, I was really bad. Now that I’m older, I can still hear the words of my mom telling me I’m gonna regret it. “Do better in school. Stay the course. Don’t do what I did, I regret it!” Oh, how she was right!
As a teenager, identity crisis is something you face. Trying to fit in. We find ourselves in a circle of bad influences. We battle with the struggle of gaining approval. Faced with making right and wrong choices and how we appear to our peers.
I always felt, as if my mom didn’t really understand me. She was mom. She wasn’t a teenager. She didn’t know what it was like to be my age. Well, that’s how I felt!
My daughter is 13 years old and isn’t half as wild as I was at this age. All thanks to Jesus! Even with Jesus a huge part of her life, I see the struggle of the teenage girl. I recognize the looks my daughter gives me, as I’m certain she’s thinking I have no clue as to what it feels like to be her age.
It’s like I’m looking at myself as a young girl. Only this time, I’m on the other end.
So what do I do? I get ready for battle! I’ll do what I know my mom did — I’ll go into battle in my ‘War Room’. I’ll stand strong and tall on my knees. My children’s future is at stake here! And in this war, I’m NOT alone.
We spend a lot of time messing up and even more time regretting what we’ve done instead of spending time allowing God to restore what has been done and making all things NEW.
I need to let my mom know how thankful I am, for ALL she has done. Her words still linger in my head as I’m now in her position. Facing the challenges of motherhood. So I decided to write a tribute to my mama. My Lady. My queen…
I took a long hard look at my family, and thought about how grateful I am to have YOU as my mom. With kids in all stages of life, I sometimes feel like I’m stretched in all areas. I’m trying to figure out how to deal with each one. Do you know what I mean?! Of course you do! You’ve done it 9 times, and even now you’re a HUGE part of growth in your grandchildren’s lives. How do you do it? I’m still trying to wrap my head around it… how do you raise 9 kids and then continue to help raise more.
I mean, who has the time, strength and desire to do that?! But here you are, so willing to do it with joy and pleasure.
Mom, I haven’t been the best daughter to you! I’ve taken you for granted. I’ve dishonored you. I’ve misjudged you. I haven’t always shown you the love you deserve.
I know that somethings I did as a kid have scarred you. Yet, you have never held things against me. You have ALWAYS been there for me! You have the most forgiving heart I know.
Though I have caused you hurt and pain, here we are, with the best relationship we’ve EVER had! All thanks to Jesus!
You often told us as kids how much you’ve missed your mom. With the pain you experienced through your loss, all you’ve ever wanted was for us to not have to feel the same. So you’ve tried and tried your best. Thank you for that mom! Thank you for your kind heart. You have been the love and patience in our family. You have taught us to be at peace with one another. Staying upset with each other has never been an option for you.
As I continually build my relationship with Christ and I learn more about Him and His love for us, I’m reminded of how you carry the gift of peace. Regardless of the pain others have caused you, you have loved unconditionally.
I’m now a wife and mother and sometimes I feel like I just need my mom. I’ll never forget my wedding day as we danced and you told me to love my husband and be a good mom. You have encouraged me to let go of my stubbornness.
Thank you for all you’ve imparted in me through your example and words. Thank you for your help! Thank you for your patience! Thank you for being YOU!!! I can’t change our past, but I can work on our future. I will spend my days loving you and cherishing you! I love you to the moon and back! I’ll spend my days praying over your life as you’ve done for mine. Thankful for our God who restores and heals. Thankful for you mom! I cherish you! Happy Mothers Day!
Rest in Him,