Transformation

Acclimating Through The Years

We’ve officially reached the end of the year. All the Christmas craze has passed and here we are getting ready to enter a NEW YEAR. I’ve found myself breezing through the season with a new found enjoyment. I’m not feeling rushed, nor am I feeling disappointed how fast the year has flown by. I’m taking life day by day and I don’t want to miss a thing.

In August I celebrated a BIG birthday. The big 4 0 has caught up with me. Isn’t it something to want to rush through life. We find ourselves wanting to grow up when we’re young. Then life passes us by. All of a sudden I want life to slow down. I want to enjoy the moments as they come. Today is a gift, and tomorrow is certainly not promised.

As my birthday came and went, I had this new view on life. I have found that I can attest to what Solomon wrote in Ecclesiastes. A lot of our toiling under the sun is vanity and striving after the wind.

I found a new perspective for life. Enjoy it! Don’t waste another minute with petty issues that can be easily resolved with a simple I’m sorry.

Allow me to share some issues that happened along this year, that caused me to relate to what Solomon had written about. Issues that changed my perspective on life.

Your Spouse Is Not Your Enemy

I have found that within this last year I wasn’t the only one having a hard time understanding my spouse. It’s kinda scary to be quite honest, how quickly we become selfish in marriage. We pray for a God given spouse, and then find ourselves willing to give up on the gift God has given us.

There’s truth in the saying; there’s your side, their side and the TRUTH.

I found myself once again constantly at odds with my husband. The next argument always seemed to feel as if it progressed. Our 7 year Anniversary was around the corner, and instead of anticipating our trip, we were questioning if we wanted to go.

To be honest there wasn’t a deep issue that we experienced that caused issues. They were small misunderstandings here and there, that weren’t communicated well between us. In all honesty, it was each one of us choosing our reasons to be upset (mostly me), and a wedge was building between us. But, God intervened. He brought peace in our marriage. Revealed what was in our hearts and changed us. Which then, allowed us to enjoy our trip.

Children Are A Gift From God

In our home, we have a teenage girl, and two young ones, ages 6 and 3. Our home is loud, with kids fighting, and constantly annoying each other. Then, there’s the parents who get upset with all the chaos and lose their cool. More often than I’d like to admit.

Teenage girl problems have been challenging this year. We found ourselves constantly fighting her. Trying different ways to guide her in a way that allows her to embrace who God has created her to be, along with going against the grain of what seems “normal” to this generation.

After all my reading, praying and seeking advice we’ve come to the conclusion that we can’t control her. She’s gonna make mistakes and it’s ok to let her learn from them.

Once again, God intervened and has given us peace to step back and allow her to learn, just as we are learning through this journey with Him.

Never Stop Praying And Loving

Life is full of let downs. People will constantly disappoint us, just as much as we will disappoint others. I’m certain that if we take responsibility for our own actions, we can find enough room to forgive what others may say/do against us.

“Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil. For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up!”

‭‭Ecclesiastes‬ ‭4:9-10‬ ‭ESV‬‬

I’ve had this nagging question in my heart, why people would choose to be alone over resolving their issues with one another. I couldn’t help but to think of how many people have walked away from the church because of issues with others. The church was created for community! We are the ones who are called to be the hands and feet of Jesus in this dark world. Why can’t we let things go against others?! My heart has become heavy towards the constant bickering and falling away.

Though my heart is heavy, I am continually praying for the church. For the next generation. I’m praying that instead of people walking away from the church, people would rise up and BE the church. Instead of being frustrated with people, I hope to teach people. Teach them by the the way I live, not only by the words I speak or write.

I’ll continually pray for people, and pray that my heart doesn’t become numb to issues of life. I believe God IS intervening! Even now before I see it with my own eyes. He’s working things out for our good for His glory.

Love Them Now, While They’re Here

In September, we lost a great friend, mentor and leader at our church. It was sudden and it was painful. I couldn’t understand how affecTed my husband and I were by the loss, when we had only known Ted for a little over a year. As many shared about him, it became evident why it hurt as it did. He was a man filled with the love of Christ.

His hand shakes were firm, his eyes were attentive and his friendship was genuine. He and his beautiful wife, did such a great job pouring into lives of other people, and marriages. We miss him, but there is no doubt in our hearts, that he is with Jesus. And, in that we rejoice.

If that wasn’t hard enough, another great woman of God went home to be with the Lord, leaving two older kids and a husband.

The legacy, these two left, have been something that has left me thinking about constantly. It leaves me wondering what people would have to say about me, when I’m gone. Will I be remembered by the love I poured in others or by the pain I’ve caused them?!

One thing is certain, I want to be remembered by the love I’ve shared, regardless of our differences.

Lessons Learned

Here are a few things I’ve learned over the years through mistakes, 2nd chances, and a willingness to grow through what I go through.

  • Don’t hold grudges
  • Forgive
  • Love people with an overflowing love from Jesus
  • Take chances
  • Keep dreaming
  • Keep believing
  • Don’t take yourself to seriously
  • Laugh hard
  • Be vulnerable

His Grace Runs Deep

My biggest help has been the help of the Holy Spirit Himself as He teaches me, to be more like Him and less of myself. I’m learning that in order for me to be who I need to be, I need to love Jesus with a love that overflows into the lives of those around me.

This world teaches us to be selfish, while Jesus taught us to be selfless. This world tells us to do what makes us happy, while Jesus taught us to do what pleases God. This world teaches us to believe in whatever you want, while the Bible teaches us to believe in the Living God.

“The saying is trustworthy, for: If we have died with him, we will also live with him;”

‭‭2 Timothy‬ ‭2:11‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Everything is so trivial in comparison to Eternity. Don’t lose focus of the short time hear on earth when we can have an eternity in heaven.

If we believe the best is yet to come, we have to be ready to overcome the challenges that life will bring, in order to get us to a place of its best.

Let me leave you with this reminder:

“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” ‭‭Romans‬ ‭12:2‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Your life transformed by the gospel is what this world needs to see. Praying you find freedom and purpose in this life through Jesus Christ.

Rest In Him,

With love,

Rosie Hernandez

healing, Relationships

Broken Hallelujah

There is something so beautiful when brokenness meets praise. Where there is nothing left to hold onto, other than a broken hallelujah. 

 

“The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit. You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.”

Psalms 51:17 NLT

 

I was broken-hearted. I was tired of doing things my way and never experiencing true healing, because I thought I could cover my hurt with alcohol, men, partying. Anything to keep me distracted of the pain I was feeling in my heart.

This time – I finally decided I would give God a true and honest chance. I was willing to hurt, but, open to the idea of being healed…

I finally let go of what I thought I knew about God and church and I allowed myself to learn and grow in Him and His truth.

Learning the power of worship, brought true healing and strengthened my foundation.

 

At first, to be quite honest, I didn’t know the “music” I heard at church was actually worship. All I knew was that there was something going on in my heart and I was drawn to it.

 

A Responsive Heart

 

I wanted to play the same songs that I was hearing in church. I wanted the same goose-bump feelings, I felt as these songs played at the beginning of the service.

I wanted that same peace I felt when this broken girl was at church. I felt comforted. I felt new. I felt something I couldn’t put into words unless you felt it yourself.

 

There was a time I was talking to my sister Sheri about church. Sheri was the sister in whom I saw her life change for the better, because she was going to church…

During one of our conversations about church, she was simply explaining what worship was. She told me that – “worship is what we offer unto the Lord before He speaks to us. We give our hearts to God in Praise and it prepares us for what God will speak to us through the service.”

Simply put – Worship postures our hearts for the rest of the service.

Woah!

This was something I was so unaware of – BUT, when I heard it, it was as if my heart said yes and amen. 

When we tap into the presence of God, there is a part of our soul that is awakened.

That was exactly what I was experiencing…

My life wasn’t the same after that!

My source of joy, peace and the desire to love and forgive all came from Him. I began to live from Him.

 

 

I will sing to the Lord as long as I live. I will praise my God to my last breath.

Psalms 104:33 NLT

 

I remember going on YouTube and searching for the songs I was listening to at church. The songs that were on repeat at that time were songs like ‘Savior King’ and ‘Mighty to Save’ by Hillsong.  Lyrics, that penetrated right into my heart such as…

 “We love you Lord, we worship you

You are our God, you alone are good

You asked your Son to carry this

The heavy cross, our weight of sin”

~ Saviour King 

 

“So take me as You find me

All my fears and failures

And fill my life again

I give my life to follow

Everything I believe in

And now I surrender

(I surrender)”

~ Mighty To Save

 

Revelation was taking place. I was hearing these songs about worshiping someone whom I had heard of, but hadn’t actually understood the depth of who He REALLY is — JESUS — The one whom had saved me from myself. The Savior of the world. I wanted to surrender my life to Him…

 

 

I was able to let go of reason. I let go of logic and I engaged in a supernatural experience. Where I became fully aware of the presence of God. 

I allowed my heart to align with His Spirt. Something happened and there is no other answer other than – power released through worship. The power that releases through a heart dedicated to obedience to God. A heart after Gods heart.

 

From the end of the earth I call to You when my heart is faint; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For You have been a refuge for me. A tower of strength against the enemy. Let me dwell in Your tent forever; Let me take refuge in the shelter of Your wings. Selah. 

Psalms 61:2-4 NASB

 

Once I understood that worship is what I was offering unto the Lord, I began to hear the services in a different way.

I began to grow spiritually. God put people in my life who would take time to teach me about the Bible. And, one of those people would later on become my husband. He would not only teach me about the Bible, but I actually saw him live out what he spoke.

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My husband is a worshipper! I saw him unashamedly fall on his knees in reverence to God!

Learning to worship God was the beginning:

  • I’ve learnt to forgive myself.
  • I’ve learnt to forgive others.
  • I’ve learnt to wait.
  • I’ve learnt to trust Him.
  • I’ve been comforted.
  • I’ve experienced healing in my mind and body.

Learning to worship isn’t something that happens and stays. I’ve had to push through, and fight my flesh.

I’ve had to force my hands up. I have had to offer praises that were a sacrifice of faith. Believing that God would be faithful and meet me – right where I was.

 

The other thing I feel important to mention is, through all my seasons of life – I have learnt  to stay at the feet of Jesus. Meaning, regardless of what is going on in my life (marriage, family, financial, physical issues) I don’t allow myself to withdraw from the presence of God. You will find me at the front – worshipping with praise or pain.

I believe with ALL my heart, it is where my true and purest source of power, and strength is drawn from. I constantly must drink from the well of living water.

 

My prayer is, if you haven’t experienced the presence of God, that you will go deeper with Him. Starting with how you worship at church and at home. Don’t allow circumstances to dictate how you will offer your praises. Let your praises be offered in a fully surrendered heart. I promise – YOU – WON’T – regret it. He WILL draw close to you.

 

Rest in Him friend,

With Love,

Rosie Hernandez