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Broken Hallelujah

There is something so beautiful when brokenness meets praise. Where there is nothing left to hold onto, other than a broken hallelujah. 

 

“The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit. You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.”

Psalms 51:17 NLT

 

I was broken-hearted. I was tired of doing things my way and never experiencing true healing, because I thought I could cover my hurt with alcohol, men, partying. Anything to keep me distracted of the pain I was feeling in my heart.

This time – I finally decided I would give God a true and honest chance. I was willing to hurt, but, open to the idea of being healed…

I finally let go of what I thought I knew about God and church and I allowed myself to learn and grow in Him and His truth.

Learning the power of worship, brought true healing and strengthened my foundation.

 

At first, to be quite honest, I didn’t know the “music” I heard at church was actually worship. All I knew was that there was something going on in my heart and I was drawn to it.

 

A Responsive Heart

 

I wanted to play the same songs that I was hearing in church. I wanted the same goose-bump feelings, I felt as these songs played at the beginning of the service.

I wanted that same peace I felt when this broken girl was at church. I felt comforted. I felt new. I felt something I couldn’t put into words unless you felt it yourself.

 

There was a time I was talking to my sister Sheri about church. Sheri was the sister in whom I saw her life change for the better, because she was going to church…

During one of our conversations about church, she was simply explaining what worship was. She told me that – “worship is what we offer unto the Lord before He speaks to us. We give our hearts to God in Praise and it prepares us for what God will speak to us through the service.”

Simply put – Worship postures our hearts for the rest of the service.

Woah!

This was something I was so unaware of – BUT, when I heard it, it was as if my heart said yes and amen. 

When we tap into the presence of God, there is a part of our soul that is awakened.

That was exactly what I was experiencing…

My life wasn’t the same after that!

My source of joy, peace and the desire to love and forgive all came from Him. I began to live from Him.

 

 

I will sing to the Lord as long as I live. I will praise my God to my last breath.

Psalms 104:33 NLT

 

I remember going on YouTube and searching for the songs I was listening to at church. The songs that were on repeat at that time were songs like ‘Savior King’ and ‘Mighty to Save’ by Hillsong.  Lyrics, that penetrated right into my heart such as…

 “We love you Lord, we worship you

You are our God, you alone are good

You asked your Son to carry this

The heavy cross, our weight of sin”

~ Saviour King 

 

“So take me as You find me

All my fears and failures

And fill my life again

I give my life to follow

Everything I believe in

And now I surrender

(I surrender)”

~ Mighty To Save

 

Revelation was taking place. I was hearing these songs about worshiping someone whom I had heard of, but hadn’t actually understood the depth of who He REALLY is — JESUS — The one whom had saved me from myself. The Savior of the world. I wanted to surrender my life to Him…

 

 

I was able to let go of reason. I let go of logic and I engaged in a supernatural experience. Where I became fully aware of the presence of God. 

I allowed my heart to align with His Spirt. Something happened and there is no other answer other than – power released through worship. The power that releases through a heart dedicated to obedience to God. A heart after Gods heart.

 

From the end of the earth I call to You when my heart is faint; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For You have been a refuge for me. A tower of strength against the enemy. Let me dwell in Your tent forever; Let me take refuge in the shelter of Your wings. Selah. 

Psalms 61:2-4 NASB

 

Once I understood that worship is what I was offering unto the Lord, I began to hear the services in a different way.

I began to grow spiritually. God put people in my life who would take time to teach me about the Bible. And, one of those people would later on become my husband. He would not only teach me about the Bible, but I actually saw him live out what he spoke.

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My husband is a worshipper! I saw him unashamedly fall on his knees in reverence to God!

Learning to worship God was the beginning:

  • I’ve learnt to forgive myself.
  • I’ve learnt to forgive others.
  • I’ve learnt to wait.
  • I’ve learnt to trust Him.
  • I’ve been comforted.
  • I’ve experienced healing in my mind and body.

Learning to worship isn’t something that happens and stays. I’ve had to push through, and fight my flesh.

I’ve had to force my hands up. I have had to offer praises that were a sacrifice of faith. Believing that God would be faithful and meet me – right where I was.

 

The other thing I feel important to mention is, through all my seasons of life – I have learnt  to stay at the feet of Jesus. Meaning, regardless of what is going on in my life (marriage, family, financial, physical issues) I don’t allow myself to withdraw from the presence of God. You will find me at the front – worshipping with praise or pain.

I believe with ALL my heart, it is where my true and purest source of power, and strength is drawn from. I constantly must drink from the well of living water.

 

My prayer is, if you haven’t experienced the presence of God, that you will go deeper with Him. Starting with how you worship at church and at home. Don’t allow circumstances to dictate how you will offer your praises. Let your praises be offered in a fully surrendered heart. I promise – YOU – WON’T – regret it. He WILL draw close to you.

 

Rest in Him friend,

With Love,

Rosie Hernandez

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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THE ONLY STRETCH I WANT – IS ON MY YOGA PANTS

Have you ever felt as though you are being stretched beyond your limit?! Anymore and you just might fall apart. A stretched life is painful. Each time your left wondering if you can take anymore. 

There is always a hopeful side to every situation friends. If you feel like you’re about to give up – let me encourage you – DON’T!

We will experience times that we feel our faith, and patience is tested to its capacity. There is purpose in that uncomfortable position.

Rest in these truths:

“So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.” ‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭1:6-7‬ ‭NLT‬‬

 When we persevere, we are displaying genuine faith. We are giving the world hope! People will see that our faith rests on the powerful name of Jesus. Through these acts, Jesus is being revealed to the world. 

“because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” James‬ ‭1:3-4‬ ‭NIV‬‬

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We always have a choice. We can either choose to stay and believe that peace will come, or we can give up and still be facing the same issues with no peace or hope. 

 Each testing of our faith is an opportunity for us to grow stronger. Stronger in our faith. Stronger in our walk with Him. We become dependent on our Lord – and since He holds the world in His hand – we begin to trust that He has all things under control. We become mature, lacking nothing, because we have become complete in Christ. 

There is no faith, a person has now, that didn’t begin with fear. There is no strength, that didn’t begin with weakness. There is no hope, that didn’t begin with hopelessness. Each began as a negative – but, with perseverance and faith, all have been turned into positive, powerful attributes. 

Have you realized that there are NO verses in the Bible that tell us that following Jesus is gonna make your life easier?! In fact we are told the exact opposite. 

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John‬ ‭16:33‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Jesus didn’t hold back from telling us that we, WILL have trouble in this life. In times of testing, it’s important that we remember, Jesus instructed us to take heart – be ready — find our peace in Him. Friend there is no hurt, fear or confused emotion we can’t take to Jesus and replace for His peace. 

Quiet time and prayer is the only way we can receive His peace. We must keep anxiety out of our hearts and minds. We are not meant to carry the weight of it. Anxiety = fear. When fear grips our hearts we begin to feel that God can’t and/or won’t. Learning to trust in Gods timing is necessary for our growth as well. 

God is an on time God. His timing is always perfect. Because, He sees further into our days, than what we could possibly see. Since everything has a purpose, all those stretched moments of life unfold into a beautiful picture – displaying Gods goodness and His power, and how He works all things for our good. The only thing that will blur our vision of this beautiful picture is our selfish needs. Our own wants. We can be our worst enemy. If we take our eyes off ourselves for a moment, and place them on Jesus – we can get a glimpse of the beauty He’s unfolding with these good and bad days. 

Change your perspective! 

My prayer is that through your stretching season, you will come out refined. Stronger than ever, with a new perspective on life. 

Wear those yoga pants loud and proud. Jesus is your instructor. 

Rest in Him friend,

With love,

Rosie Hernandez